I don’t know a woman who walks away from the Proverbs 31 Woman completely encouraged. Somewhere in the poem I realize that I fall quite short of the type of woman she is. And I realize I do not just fall short of an arbitrary standard, I fall short of something rare and beautiful.

“She is so precious because she uses her strength, ability, wisdom, and valor so totally and selflessly for others.” ~ Bruce Waltke

I don’t. And what’s worse is that I don’t see the grotesques of promoting myself instead of promoting God. I don’t understand that every time I do what I want and ever time I complain and every time I am bitter I am rebelling against God and serving myself instead. Rebel are enemies. I set myself up as an enemy of God. I certainly don’t feel like it’s really so bad that it took the the brutal death of the Son of God to mend our relationship.

I can’t handle the guilt of how wicked I really am, it leaves me hopeless. So I tell myself that it’s a little thing to be easily offended, it’s not trying to overthrow God. It’s a small thing to be constantly thinking about my own interests, it’s not leading a rebellion. But if I have courage to stand hopeless I find true hope at last. Because at last I am silent, I make no more excuses but “look steadily a the sin, the sin that is left over without any excuse, after all allowances have been made, and [see] it in all its horror, dirt, meanness, and malice” (C.S. Lewis). At last I desperately plead with God to turn me away from all that I have run after so that I can serve him. At last I see that I need Christ to bear the wrath of God for me, a rebel. At last I see that I can never be righteous unless God counts Christ’s perfect obedience to God as if I had done it. And then, by grace I cannot fathom, I, like the valiant wife, become precious and beautiful because he is making me like his perfectly obedient Son who did not fall short of radiant glory.



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