I just put the girls down for a nap (miraculously at the same time) and read the perfect blog post. It felt like sitting next to a good friend who faithfully pointed me to God and showed how his word applied to my most acute needs. Her analogies were perfect. She gave me courage and made me laugh.

Then I flipped open my Bible. A few months ago I began a read through the Bible plan and today I’m in … oh. Numbers. Still. I muster up a bit of determination and begin.

“The LORD spoke to Moses in the Desert of Sinai in the first month of the second year after they came out of Egypt…”

I finish and put an “X” next to today’s passage. That wasn’t exactly encouraging. I can’t see a clear path between the text and my life. I leave without any specific application.

A little voice whispers in my head that I failed. That it was all duty. That it is legalistic to plod through the Bible checking off each day’s reading.

I close my Bible doubtful that it changed me.

A month later I was somewhere in Deuteronomy. I finally told my husband that I know God better from reading through these books.


As Sally Lloyd-Jones puts it, “The Bible isn’t mainly about you and what you should be doing. It’s about God and what he has done.”

So read through Numbers. Read through Amos and Obadiah. As you read, cry out, “I must see Jesus!”

John Piper explains, “A godly life is lived out of an astonished heart, a heart that’s just astonished at grace … So we go to the Bible to be amazed at God and amazed at Christ and amazed at the cross and amazed at grace and amazed at the gospel. And when we’re stunned and amazed and humbled [it] makes us a better person at the kitchen table and when we go to work.”

Don’t fret when you’re unsure how the layout of the tabernacle can make you a better wife. His word never returns void. He promised. When we have seen him, we will be changed.


This post was originally published at WOG Magazine.

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